this may be the reason that i havent posted a blog in a few days. my world has been flipped upside down and inside out. i quit smoking.
i started when i was about 17, driving a friend to school. i would smoke one of her cigarettes in the morning. got hooked. just like that. that was 12 years ago. i have smoked as much as a pack a day, or as less as 3 cigarettes a day. im addicted to nicotine, well caffeine too, (but thats another story).
i need to be healthier. i cant jog because i cant breathe when i try. i dont have the money for healthier organic groceries. how can i tell my kids not to smoke when i do. (what a hypocrite).
my first day was extremely hard. i cried almost all day. it really felt like my bestest friend in the whole world had died. as silly as it sounds, its true. day two was even worse.
today is clean day #5. yeah me! scott and i bought the nicorette gum last week at costco. i think its somewhat doing the trick. i really really want to be nicotine free. ive gotta say this is one of the hardest decisions i have ever made. everybody has been really supportive. my mom even bought me a new house plant with an encouraging note, and a lottery ticket. im not saying that i wont screw up. but i am really giving it a go. this is my first time ever trying to quit.
not to be cliche, but i really wanna see my future grandkids.
2 comments:
Honey, just keep trying. No matter what happens, if you keep trying, it will work! I'm soo proud of you! I'd give you a whole garden if I could! Love, LT
congrats on quitting smoking..its hard to kick a habit you have done for so long but you will get the benefit of a healthier life.. keep up the effort..
kelly
p.s. you will have more stamina to make more babies hahahaha!!!
Post a Comment