11:30 at night

and i just cant seem to sleep.

i guess im a little anxious about the funeral in the morning.

sooo 2 funny things that happened today that ide like to share with you...

#1. today while singing christmas carols (which i sing all year long, not just the week before christmas) my sweet 2yr old mary exclaims "no mommy, youre silly, im not mary christmas im mayyy lizabefff baaaanchard" man-o-man is she cute. that may be the single reason i dont lose it when she purposely pees in her pullup tonight, for the 3rd reason to get out of her room at bedtime.

#2. at my aunt pats christmas party tonight, jax refused to take off his not 1 but 2 necklaces. at home i really dont care about him playing with or wearing gender bias stuff. but today at the party ill admit i was a little embarrassed. oh well.

good night

mommy is sleepy

leah-beah and i rang in the new year in style. ahma (my mom), aunt linda and papa tim came over for about an hour from 10ish to 11ish. then the bean and i watched the johnas brothers preform, and the ball drop in time square. we reflected on the all the things that happened in 2008. what a good year for our family, quite busy! ceej (charleigh) clonked out on my bed around 11pm and jax passed out nursing soon after. meanwhile scott worked...overtime until 3am. after carrying the bean and ceej up to bed, i tucked myself in bed watching survivorman. what a good show. charleigh woke as i was falling asleep, around 2am. a nightmare. that woke leah up as well. back to sleep. 4am barf. lots of it. all over charleighs bed. gross. she stayed up until 6:30am with diarrhea every 10 minutes or so. back to sleep. back up at 10am. more diarrhea every 10-15 minutes. i think we went through about 40 diapers from 4am until about noon. 1 sick kid is hard. 1 sick kid with other kids, you can only imagine... i wish i could sleep like baby jax for about a week straight.